The first time I said it.

Ok guys, so I neglected to tell you about the first time I said "I love You" to Courtney. And its not due to some gross oversight by yours truly, but I ommitted it because I didn't really want angel to know at the time... But now she knows, and I feel like sharing, sooo...

We had texted the words I love you a few times, but up until this point, we hadn't really said it out loud.

We were just getting home from the JV rugby tournament, she came along to help out, and the whole bus ride home, she was being kind of annoying... We got back to that parking lot, and I had had about enough of her annoyingness, she was just about to leave and she called out across the parking lot "Love You!!" ...Pretty much just stared her down "Uh-huh" She looked at me, and said it again. This time I called back "Ok", she made this hurt face "...I...Love you.." I didn't say anything to it. There were people around and she was ticking me off, so I left it at that. She was none too happy with that. I texted her later, apologized and texted her that I love her. She accepted my apology but knocked me for not being able to verbalize it...

A few nights later I was on the phone with her, we had been talking for like 3 hours, and we had kind of a moment, and I said 'I love you..' she stopped and was like "what?" So I said it again, and she was like "Oh, um... one more time...?" Jerkface... This was the legitmate first time I told her I love her, and it was kind of a moment for me, I got like butterflies, and it felt good to just tell her...

BUT

It wasn't really a moment for her i guess..(Or it was the fact that it was 2am and we were both falling asleep) cause we were hanging out a few days after that and she calls me out for not being able to say the L-word... I was taken aback, and was all...."I did say it...on the phone the other night" She told me that she didn't remember this happening. So I tell her that the next time I say it, it will be a moment that she will NEVER forget..

A week or two passes from that moment, and we are hanging out in her back alley, like we usually do. My car is parked at the opposite end of the alley from her house, and its the end of our night, she starts walking home and i'm about to get into my car... she gets about half way up the alley and she turns around and yells "I love you!" ...I look at her and respond "I told you the next time I said that, it would be a moment that you'd never forget..." (In my head it would be a moment where I kissed her) She stands there, looks at me, one hip cocked, arms folded with an 'I dare you' look on her face...

I close the door to my car and throw my keys on the ground. I hesitate for a split second, then take off up the alley, sprinting straight for her. She moves slightly cause she was afraid that I was going to tackle her... She knows me too well. I slam into her, at almost full speed(she's a rugby player, she's fine) similtaneously wrap my arms around her tight and pick her up off the ground, I spin around a few times, holding onto her as if my life depended on it. I stop, she is still in my arms feet off the ground and in one graceful move, I put her on the ground(hard)... (it may have been a little painful, but im an S&M kinda girl) I am right on top of her, half my weight pinning her down, I pin her arms down and lean my face so close to hers, I can feel her breath. This is the moment she starts to struggle a little bit, starts to fight back, but i've got her.. and she stops struggling, I give her a little eskimo kiss, and run the tip of my nose over her cheek, I whisper her name. She has her eyes closed and I spend a minute trying to get her to look at me, I again brushed my cheek against hers, and moved back a bit. I was just looking at her, I brought my hand up and brushed a piece of hair away from her face, then i traced my fingers along the side of her face, down her neck a little ways, then back up to her cheek. I rested my hand there, moved my thumb across her cheek.. then I heard her whisper "Don't kiss me"

Um.... WOW... I stopped myself for a moment.. I was actually thinking about kissing her. I shouldn't. Thats kind of where I was about to go... I was just looking at her beautiful lips in the moonlight, I could feel her breathing, I knew exactly how soft her skin was, it was this moment that I wanted to kiss her the most that I decided that I couldn't. She asked me not to, and I really....really shouldn't.

But just because I wasn't going to kiss her, doesn't mean, I was going to stop. I leaned down, let my nose graze her ear and I whispered "I love you" I stayed on top of her a while longer, just teasing her. I said it a few more times, just to get my point across... I REALLY wanted to kiss her...

I got up, pulled her to her feet and into an immediate embrace, told her good night, let her go and then ran off to my car.