Court and I had our 2nd official fight. Ususally i'm all supportive, but I just lost it again... I really shouldn't have. It wasn't even a big deal, and I was gonna let it go, but then she gets all pissed off at me for something, and thats how it went... We both kinda had reasons to be mad, even if they were stupid reasons, so we just got mad at each other...
It sucked.
I hate it so much when we fight. And I felt really bad cause she's been dealing with a bunch of stuff, and she's kinda having a rough go at life right now... and my biggest worry in life is what i'm going to be for Halloween... I'm such a bitch.
Anyway, I sort of apologized, but continued to be a bitch, and then decided to be one right back. I held my ground and she apologized... Which is weird, cause I don't think thats ever happened. With anyone. I'm always the first to cave, to to try and make peace... but this time i wasn't... A part of me felt good that I could stand up for myself... but another part of me felt like trash cause I may have hurt her a little bit...
Anyway, we are ok now. Ok... we're not really ok... We are both still horribly screwed up messes, but the point is, we can be screwed up together.
For now.
Until I have a bout of clausterphobia in my stupid little closet...
I'm convinced that there is a back door in here somewhere... someway I can get out, without actually 'coming out'.
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