Current Events

Ok, so we're going to take a brief intermission here and take a look at my life in this very second. Cause I've got a.....problem? But im not sure its really a problem. Its more of an interesting scenario. Its September. September=new roommates. Some I hand choose, some are recommended, some are random. And before I start into this, I do not have a crush on my new roommate, thats not what this is about.

SO. New roomie moves in. For sake of time, I will refer to her as BC(Because thats where shes from and I label people by where they come from and its easy to type). BC was recommended to me by a dear friend of mine. BC moved to town at the start of August. She lived with some friends of her family until she could move into my place. I met her a week before she was to move in. She came to town and made friends with some old friends of mine, and in the short time she's been around, has quickly made friends with alot of people im friends with. Totally a good sign. The first 3 seconds of meeting her, I wasn't so sure how this was going to go, but then we shook hands and immediately I liked her. We decided to be friends and started hanging out together.

She is intelligent(enough), but kind of ditsy. She's a cute little blonde, and has all the boys chasing her. She's kind of a tom-boy, is really confident. And frankly really fun to be around.

Here is where we run into the situation. She reminds me a lot of me. A LOT. Which in some ways is attractive, the way she speaks, the way she moves. But in other ways, it makes me a little uneasy, cause im kind of a manipulative bitch. And I wonder if she has ulterior motives. And in wondering this its driving me nuts cause I can't see her endgame. What does she want?!
She is good. Very good, but not as good as me. A little less subtle. Or maybe I just see it that way because she does things that I do. (Ps, I know I'm being vague, Im sorry.)

So this is me, really liking her... but not. And its funny, because everytime i'm around her, she makes me feel comfortable, and she makes me want her to love me. And a part of me thinks she wont because she is so like me, and im so incapable of love. Which makes me want to try harder to make her love me. ...Because im screwed up like that.

Then there is point two of my situation. She doesn't like some of my friends. And some of my friends don't like her. Which may not seem like a big deal, but it is. See- I am pretty sure I like BC, and I don't want my friends to be bashing her, because shes MY friend. And they've already dubbed her "Barbie." AND she doesn't like some of my friends;friends that have been with me for years, people who I actually love. And I know that it sounds like I should just side with my real friends... but i'm not sure how I feel about that, especially since she is my new roommate, and I feel like I can really get close to her.

So i'm taking the weekend off, going to Fairmont with one of my oldest, most trusted friends and we are going to figure out whats goin on. Get me some space between BC and the Barbie-haters.