Catch up... kind of.

Ok. So a bunch of stuff has happened. Too much really for me to catch you up on, and mostly I don't want to really talk about it.

I got home that Sunday night, went to meet her in our usual spot... she was sitting by the fence when I pulled up. I got out of my car, she got up, made like I was gonna tackle hug her, she took a few steps back.. I normal hugged her, hard... We sat around for a while, just talked. I could tell she wasn't handling the whole situation very well. She ended up sitting on the hood of my car, with her knees tucked up to her chest and she asked me to just hold her.. So I did, I wrapped my arms around her and rested my head on hers, and just stood there. Any conversation we had that night was awkward and abrupt, I really didn't know what to say to her, there were a lot of pauses.

And that's the way our relationship continued for a while. I never really knew what to say, so I usually didn't say much, we went three weeks without seeing each other. She got sick and stressed. And then some crap happened. I'm not going to get into it..

Anyway, I find out that she is working with one of my friends from high school and they have hit it off, and they started talking about me, and they decided that we really needed to all hang out. So... we did. And the thing about Tino(Christina)is she brings out the crazy in me. And usually im calm and responsible, and reserved around Courtney, very much the appropriate, adult type role model, but that night we had conversations, it was really relaxed and it got inappropriate. Not inappropriate-inappropriate, but given our relationship, it was... I'm still her coach. Tino wasnt sure whether or not I knew she was lez, so we had that conversation, lol. Then she told me she was surprised that I wasn't gay... awkward moment, then Courtney tells me that when she first met me, she thought I was lesbian... Apparently I give off that vibe. We started talking about sexuality and ratios and how it sat on a spectrum. some people are 100% straight, some people are like 60-40, you know and we were trying to determine what we were, and as much as I know I'm not 80-20, this is what I claimed to be...

Anyway, this was the first time that Courtney has seen me in a social situation... and I don't know how I feel about this... Its made us closer... Which is good and bad...