Why do i do it?

Two months. I haven't seen her for like two months... and in the past week, I've seen her 6 times in the last week. Saved her. Picked her up in the freezing cold when she makes stupid decisions, or gets kicked out of somewhere... yesterday- I have this meeting with some fellow coaches, it turns into a hang out, I told Court I would text her with some details after... the 'meeting' goes till about 1am... and I text her till about 2... I just fall asleep and she calls me at 3 am... she is in the middle of this ridiculous fight with her best friend who then proceeds to kick her out of the house. It's freezing out side. It's 330 in the am, and she's on the north side... I get up and drive in that general direction, trying to get her to tell me where she is. She starts crying hysterically and it breaks my heart... I drive all over, finally get her to tell me where she is... I find her, give her my jacket and get her into my car. She says she can't go home... I didn't really trust her alone anyway, so I took her to my place. I pushed the couch right up to my fireplace, and sat there with her, talking, trying to calm her down and warm her up...

She asked me "Why are you doing this? I feel like you are always saving me... Why do you do it?"
.... I gave her the answer that I always give her- "Its because I love you."

It's the only thing I can say... and its close to the truth. You want to know why I do it? It's not just that I love you, its because I'm IN love with you. And its not the fleeting kind, the pathetic or desperate, its not lust, its not puppy love, it is pure love. REAL love. And that's why. I know I can't have you. We will never be together. That much you have made clear. And yet, despite this, I still want you to be happy, to be safe. I NEED to protect you. Anytime I can make your life easier, I will, even when it costs me. ...Because I love you. Really love you. And I always will. ...That's why I do it.

And it kills me.

She slept on the couch, I slept on another couch 6 feet away from her.